i feel really superficial.

every time I get on wordpress, I look at the views bar.
I was excited when I saw 73 views, and saddened when I saw 4.
I know it shouldn’t matter to me since it is a PERSONAL blog, not a public one, but… it’s as if I enjoy the attention. Yet in real life situations, I do my best to avoid attention. This kind of contradiction (if it can be called one)